becky
i need to talk about my other half.she recently went to the hospital to have a feeding tube put in so she might get stronger and kick this cancer completely.the cancer is gone but it seems the treatment is going to kill her.unknown to me she made her daughter promise that if any problems she did not want to continue the way she was.well there was problems and they finally took her off the breathing machine.my becky can still breath but not enough to continue living for very long.they give her all the morphine she needs to not have any pain.i think right now she is in a dream world,every now and then she has this great big smile on her face and maybe moves her hands a little.if i lean over and tell her i love her she whispers that she loves me to but she will not react or open her eyes to talk on her own.im 61 and used to be a bad ass ex-marine but with my becky the way she is i am now a cry baby.i can not even think with out thinking of her.sorry to spill my guts but i had to do something to keep my sanity.please say a prayer for her.she is such a special person that i know she will be by Gods side. thank you. old semperfi
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