Ong Toi's comments on the Fall of South Vietnam - last days

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    (6/26/01 7:51:08 pm)
    | Del All Ong Toi's comments on the Fall of South Vietnam - last days
    April 24, 25, 27 ... April 30, 1975,

    We, SVN soldiers were confused, frustrated, yet also
    asking and wondering where our superpower friend of
    many years was. Moral and fear were common. Rumors
    were abound: the Seventh Fleet was moving into
    position to provide air and sea support, that Utapao
    was getting B52 ready to bomb Hanoi, Hai Phong, the
    DMZ, and their supply routes. We held our hope high
    that our friends would come to help. We were looking
    to Washington D.C for an emergency military aid
    package. We were looking for a new leader to emerge
    to urge and encourage us to fight on. We heard

    Mid-day, April 30, 1975 Big Minh announced that we
    surrender! crying, sobbing, cursing and screaming were
    common. We felt betrayed and abandoned by our
    leaders, by our "American" friends. Evacuations
    ensued, a lot of people left Vietnam, some with merit
    and some without. A lot of people who deserved to be
    evacuated never got their chance. I still don't know
    deep in my heart that I merit to be evacuated for now
    I learned of the fates of many men and women who were
    left behind had to suffer and endure hardship, jail,
    "re-educational" camps in the North (near the border
    with China). I feel particularly guilty whenever I
    see and talk to a lady, her name is Thuy, who has a
    little sandwich shop in Fountain Valley, CA. She came
    to the US 6 years ago. She was the head of, therefore
    highest ranking female officer, the SVN female
    counter-intelligent unit. She wanted to leave but yet
    she did not, instead she spent her last hours going
    through the SVN intelligent headquarter to burn and
    to destroy secret document until it was too late to
    leave. Her effort save hundreds of life for without it
    a lot of people would have had to spend at least 10
    years in the "camp" up north. She was put in the camp
    for 10 plus years, they beat her up (having no teeth
    now), provided her with next to nothing as far as food
    and medical care are concern. I know this lady quite
    well since she's a distance cousin of my wife. Last
    year the Little Saigon radio interviewed her as part
    of the 25 years commemoration of the fall of our
    country, she recounted her final hours, my wife and I
    listened to her story, both of us cried out loud.
    I spoke with her several times and she never said nor
    did she show anything bitter about being abandoned by
    her leaders and in particular, her American friends.
    In fact, she appreciates this country to give her a
    second chance to live her second life.

    I left South Vietnam confused, hurt, angry, shameful,
    and sad. I hated all leaders religious, military, and
    political. I was angry at the "Americans" for
    abandoning us. The sentiment was pretty common. Yet,
    deep inside some of us soldiers, we were, then, hoping
    that somehow the US would get involved again and send
    us back with the US support to retake what was taken
    away. It never happened. My anger toward "Americans"
    was then gradually eroded as I gradually to realize
    and understand the "politics of war". My anger was so
    intense that my previous wife (a Caucasian) got so
    upset and shameful to the point that one night, I was
    lying in bed, she came in soaked with gasoline and a
    Zippo on her hand. She, Cynthia, said: Toi, since my
    country messed up your country so bad, I, as an
    American, can only do a small thing to pay you back
    and that is to set myself afire. Needless to say, I
    jumped so fast and lead Cynthia to the shower and calm
    her down. It then struck me that SVN and us were
    abandoned by America (Washington, D.C.) and not by the

    Now, almost 26 years later I mostly feel sadness for
    my other country, I am angry at the communist Vietnam
    for bringing the country to its knees, economically
    and socially; for avenging the soldiers who were less
    fortunate to have had a chance to get out. I feel
    fortunate to have come to this country and doing what
    I do now, I am fortunate to connect with the LIST
    where I can freely express my emotion.

    Yes, my wife and I will cry again on April 30, 2001
    when we attend ceremony and listen to Little Saigon
    radio stations. I am not even angry with America for
    I know a little county's fate is in the hand of the
    superpower; there's little that I can do for now I
    know a little bit about the "politic of war".

    May peace be with all of us, brothers,

    V.I.P. Member
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    (6/26/01 10:21:30 pm)
    | Del Re: Ong Toi's comments on the Fall of South Vietnam - last d
    Thanks for posting Ong Toi's comments, Larry D.
    His perspective is enlightening, to say the least.
    Something I've wondered about since '75.


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    (6/26/01 10:52:48 pm)
    | Del Re: Ong Toi's comments on the Fall of South Vietnam - last d
    A good man Catch. What a sad experience. Damn war.
    ...and two hard boiled eggs.